Fears, Fears, More Fears, and a New Endo?!

I am heart broken! I have the best endo in the WORLD. Yes you heard me in the WORLD! She is so amazing! She has been there for me in ways that most doctors wouldn't even think about. Tuesday...two days..yes ONLY TWO DAYS! Will be my last appt. with her and I am SO SAD. In addition to being SO SAD I am also SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SCAREDDDDDDDD! What happens if I never find another endo i like? Perhaps i'll be forever shopping for one! DO I NEED TO TELL YOU HOW HARD IT IS TO ACTUALLY FIND A DOCTOR YOU LIKE? LET ALONE ONE THAT YOU PUT YOUR LIFE IN THE HANDS OF FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE! ugh. How will I ever survive this?? I should call my insurance company and yell/cry thier ears off! My doctor herself is sad and doesn't want this! UGH! I have no solutions to this problem yet...only question/concerns! I havn't even LOOKED for a new doctor! I am in denial. BIG TIME.