Wednesday, June 3, 2009
PUMPNESS NO MORE
As of this second RIGHT NOW! It has been 28 hours and 46 minutes that I have been without the pump! THANK GOODNESS. After 10 years I was starting to feel like a robot! Fuel in Fuel out! So it feels nice to be disconnected from my box. Blood sugar checking =20 a day. Shots = 10 a day. I wouldn't have it any other way!
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Fears, Fears, More Fears, and a New Endo?!
I am heart broken! I have the best endo in the WORLD. Yes you heard me in the WORLD! She is so amazing! She has been there for me in ways that most doctors wouldn't even think about. Tuesday...two days..yes ONLY TWO DAYS! Will be my last appt. with her and I am SO SAD. In addition to being SO SAD I am also SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SCAREDDDDDDDD! What happens if I never find another endo i like? Perhaps i'll be forever shopping for one! DO I NEED TO TELL YOU HOW HARD IT IS TO ACTUALLY FIND A DOCTOR YOU LIKE? LET ALONE ONE THAT YOU PUT YOUR LIFE IN THE HANDS OF FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE! ugh. How will I ever survive this?? I should call my insurance company and yell/cry thier ears off! My doctor herself is sad and doesn't want this! UGH! I have no solutions to this problem yet...only question/concerns! I havn't even LOOKED for a new doctor! I am in denial. BIG TIME.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Happy Early Mother's Day
HOW GOD SELECTS THE MOTHER OF A CHILD WITH DIABETESby Erma BombeckMost women become mothers by accident, some by choice, a few by social pressures and a couple by habit. Did you ever wonder how mothers of children with diabetes are chosen? Somehow I visualize God hovering over earth selecting his instruments for propagation with great care and deliberation. As he observes, he instructs his angels to make notes in a giant ledger.
"Armstrong, Beth, son. Patron Saint Matthew."
"Forrest, Marjorie, daughter, Patron Saint Cecilia."
"Rutledge, Carrie, twins. Patron Saint Gerard. He's used to profanity."
Finally, He passes a name to an angel and smiles, "Give her a child with diabetes." The angel is curious. "Why this one, God? She's so happy."
"Exactly", smiles God. "Could I give child with diabetes to a mother who does not know laughter? That would be cruel".
"But has she the patience?" asks the angel.
"I don't want her to have too much patience, or she will drown in a sea of self-pity and despair. Once the shock and resentment wear off, she'll handle it. I watched her today. She has that feeling of self and independence that is so rare and so necessary in a mother. You see, the child I am going to give her has her own world. She has to make it live in her world and that's not going to be easy."
"But, Lord, I don't think she even believes in you."
God smiles. "No matter. I can fix that. This one is perfect. She has just enough selfishness."
The angel gasps. "Selfishness? Is that a virtue?"
God nods. "If she cannot separate herself from the child occasionally, she will never survive. Yes, here is a woman whom I will bless with less than perfect."
"She does not realize it yet, but she is to be envied. I will permit her to see clearly the things I see .... ignorance, cruelty, prejudice ... and allow her to rise above them. She will never be alone. I will be at her side every minute of every day of her life because she is doing my work as surely as if she is here by my side."
"And what about her patron saint?" asks the angel, his pen poised in mid air. God smiles. "A mirror will suffice."
HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!
"Armstrong, Beth, son. Patron Saint Matthew."
"Forrest, Marjorie, daughter, Patron Saint Cecilia."
"Rutledge, Carrie, twins. Patron Saint Gerard. He's used to profanity."
Finally, He passes a name to an angel and smiles, "Give her a child with diabetes." The angel is curious. "Why this one, God? She's so happy."
"Exactly", smiles God. "Could I give child with diabetes to a mother who does not know laughter? That would be cruel".
"But has she the patience?" asks the angel.
"I don't want her to have too much patience, or she will drown in a sea of self-pity and despair. Once the shock and resentment wear off, she'll handle it. I watched her today. She has that feeling of self and independence that is so rare and so necessary in a mother. You see, the child I am going to give her has her own world. She has to make it live in her world and that's not going to be easy."
"But, Lord, I don't think she even believes in you."
God smiles. "No matter. I can fix that. This one is perfect. She has just enough selfishness."
The angel gasps. "Selfishness? Is that a virtue?"
God nods. "If she cannot separate herself from the child occasionally, she will never survive. Yes, here is a woman whom I will bless with less than perfect."
"She does not realize it yet, but she is to be envied. I will permit her to see clearly the things I see .... ignorance, cruelty, prejudice ... and allow her to rise above them. She will never be alone. I will be at her side every minute of every day of her life because she is doing my work as surely as if she is here by my side."
"And what about her patron saint?" asks the angel, his pen poised in mid air. God smiles. "A mirror will suffice."
HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Brave Faces
I went to see the little boy I told you about again today. He is doing great! He has received Rufus the Diabetic Bear and loved the book that came with him. He is very stubborn about his shots...he wants only the arms lol which I don't blame him for! He is ready to come home tho. His parents said that he hasn't cried over his past four shots! Which is amazing!!! I told him to find his brave face...he definitely found it! All in all he is doing great!
He is only 4
Well...
A little boy in my class got diagnosed with Diabetes on Friday. He is only 4-years-old. As soon as I found out I just beat myself up! I should have noticed the changes! He was not eating at lunch. He would just sit there with this...miserable look on his face. He was ALWAYS going pee. Always. He had a drastic change in personality. Yet I didn't put two and two together. I still have not been able to wrap my mind around this whole thing.
I know whats in store for him...and I want more then anything to take all of it away. I want to believe that He is just sick. That it is the flu or something. However, I know it is not.
Please pray for him. He is at the beginning of a long and troubling journey.
A little boy in my class got diagnosed with Diabetes on Friday. He is only 4-years-old. As soon as I found out I just beat myself up! I should have noticed the changes! He was not eating at lunch. He would just sit there with this...miserable look on his face. He was ALWAYS going pee. Always. He had a drastic change in personality. Yet I didn't put two and two together. I still have not been able to wrap my mind around this whole thing.
I know whats in store for him...and I want more then anything to take all of it away. I want to believe that He is just sick. That it is the flu or something. However, I know it is not.
Please pray for him. He is at the beginning of a long and troubling journey.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Good Deeds....Good Feelings...and $20 of giftcards!!
So I admit..this has NOTHING do to with diabetes!
but....
Today I go to Pei Wei at 8:45...find out they close at 9:00...so i say...."O Ok...well we will come back another time...since you are getting ready to close..." The manger follows me out and says "Thank-you! It's been a day from you know where..." Then she gives me two $10 gift cards!!!
I must say all this...is to be credited to Heather...it was her idea! But good deeds do not go unseen!
but....
Today I go to Pei Wei at 8:45...find out they close at 9:00...so i say...."O Ok...well we will come back another time...since you are getting ready to close..." The manger follows me out and says "Thank-you! It's been a day from you know where..." Then she gives me two $10 gift cards!!!
I must say all this...is to be credited to Heather...it was her idea! But good deeds do not go unseen!
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
What does my sun tan have to do with diabetes?????
So funny story...
Saturday I worked outside in the Texas heat for...count them...13 hours! What do I notice today? A white non-tanned bracelet mark on my nicely tanned left arm...great all I need now is to get the actual medical alert symbol tanned on me too!
Saturday I worked outside in the Texas heat for...count them...13 hours! What do I notice today? A white non-tanned bracelet mark on my nicely tanned left arm...great all I need now is to get the actual medical alert symbol tanned on me too!
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Lets get some terminology down!
So last night I was NOT happy! Today I realize that some of you may not have any clue what I am talking about. So step one...
Insulin Pump- gives insulin 24/7 7 days a week 365 days a year.
"Site"- An IV like device put into your skin. The "site" is where the insulin from the pump is transfused into the body.
Reservoir- Hold the insulin while in the pump.
Typically you change your site and place a new reservoir in the insulin pump every three days. There are many different "brands" of the insulin pump. I use the Minimed Paradigm 522
Hopefully this explains a few things.
Insulin Pump- gives insulin 24/7 7 days a week 365 days a year.
"Site"- An IV like device put into your skin. The "site" is where the insulin from the pump is transfused into the body.
Reservoir- Hold the insulin while in the pump.
Typically you change your site and place a new reservoir in the insulin pump every three days. There are many different "brands" of the insulin pump. I use the Minimed Paradigm 522
Hopefully this explains a few things.
Monday, April 6, 2009
It's 10:38
It's 10:38 and I am crying. My site got pulled out..and I yell... I don't know about you but whenever my site gets pulled out I get so angry! I don't want to talk to anyone I want to slam things and I feel like I have no control. I change my site and I don't put it on right. I feel uncomfortable with my new site so I get angry again. Out of pure anger I yank it out and start all over. This time I get it right. But I am so angry with the whole situation I just cry and cry and cry. I want to explain why I am so angry and how it feels...but it seems an impossible feat.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
My Pumpness
So I have been on the minimed pump for...10 or so years now. My first pump was nothing of a miracle compared to the pump i have today! (The Top picture being my new one...and the bottom one being my old one) Yet I find that the old minimed pump...has left it's scars evident on my body...see below.
This has led me to find NEW and IMPROVED ways to where my pump! Yes I find this discovery of mine wonderful! Where have a I chosen you ask? My arms. Yes I admit that my actual site is noticed much more since it is on a part of my body that can be seen. However my tubing never gets caught and pulled out because it is all protected underneath my shirt. I clip the pump on the front center of my bra. It is never noticed and doesn't add an extra two inches to my hips!
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Grown Out Of What?
So the way I see....people need to be educated!
The other day I get into this conversation with the cafeteria lady at my school...and you can guess what the conversation leads to...diabetes....so then she looks me up and down and says...."You haven't outgrown that yet?" You can imagine my frustration!
The other day I get into this conversation with the cafeteria lady at my school...and you can guess what the conversation leads to...diabetes....so then she looks me up and down and says...."You haven't outgrown that yet?" You can imagine my frustration!
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Support Children's Congress
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gFpuGCFrxUE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VuoltnORaVY
^ Children's Congress of 1999. One year after I was diagnosed.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VuoltnORaVY
^ Children's Congress of 1999. One year after I was diagnosed.
Child Friendly Education??
So I found this video...it's got a catchy tune and this friendly pump character (its a little over done i admit.) However, that is beside the point. Like i said it is child friendly. So check it out!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d4J2Ifex1ak
Happy day!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d4J2Ifex1ak
Happy day!
Monday, March 30, 2009
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